JGuy....i feel your pain and your fear through your words. It has to be hard to not get any affection from the woman you love and desire.
Maybe if you counter each negative with a positive it can help you feel more balanced. I.e. she won't hug me (negative) and she is still in the house (positive:).
I feel like one of the best things about this bb is that we are all at different stages and you can see how many others would love to have a W/H that is willing to stay in the house and willing to go to counseling. In that aspect you are in a good place..a better place than most, even though I know her lack of desire hurts you.
We are all in pain. Some days it's hard just to get out of bed...but if we look hard enough we can find some good.
Thank you for your advice on my post. I will take it to heart as much as I can.
Rain
Rain (moi): 40 Ex Fiance: 39 3 kids On/off again EA & PA Last BD by ow 12/15 Moved kids and myself back into our own place: 12/15