In The Arena II

[Vanilla]

Thanks for you kind words Rouky. Ah having a meltdown, human for other's and under most circumstances appropriate and I would provide the same advice.

Re my sitch re-inforces why Mr Ex BD, and why he is now with his lovely Champion Bodybuilder. So it is a bit circular. I beat myself because I am not more like her physically (slim, athletic and strong) and mentally ( mentally tough and disciplined) and then I get depressed and then I beat myself for being depressed and then I feel bad because being depressed was why Mr EX BD, etc etc etc, etc. Big whopping emotional black hole....Aarrrggghhhh

OK, JellyB, spiralling thought patterns. Whilst you are in the middle of this lets create a pattern interrupt. Something that will break the cycle.

Let's learn from this for the future so that when the cycle starts we recognise it and interrupt it.

Your cycle seems to be about 4 weeks and a trigger sends you downwards.

Have you identified the trigger?

It's truly a choice at trigger point to say this is a trigger let's take action on it.

Normally I go GAL when this starts or I get a sauna. Heat helps.

What would cause an interrupt for you? A film, a meal, a walk, getting pampered?

Let's bottom this out and reduce its effects on Jellyb as much as we can.

Let's manage it, if possible making it a strength.

Know this is absolutely completely normal. Within the usual normal standard distribution for those in stress sitches.

V