You are wonderful just as you are. If you want to be stronger physically that's up to you. Do so for your health, not your looks.
Anxiety is a state, I know I suffer this one, it's a package deal with PTSD. It will pass, when it starts especially in public I usually try to find a private place , disabled loos work well, then I sit down, I tell myself breathe, breathe, breathe, breathe over and over. I rock and weep sometimes I moan and gulp.
I feel wiped afterwards. Lack of vitamin B won't help so take loads of B complex. You will need to toilet, handy that I find disabled loos. I also apply cold water to my face. I wait until it's passed, which can take a while.
It will pass, each one leaves you stronger than the next. Ironic isn't it that anxiety attacks make one stronger! The body becomes more tolerant of the flushing too.
I keep short of a panic attacks these days, just good old fashioned anxiety attacks. For those that don't know panic attacks squeeze the chest and breathing goes shallow, there is emotional flooding too. Often feels like a heart attack but it isn't. Anxiety attacks are less intense but last longer. Both leave one wiped energy wise and craving carbs.
I always need an early night too for a couple of days. Try sweet potatoes avoids the need for cards and will fill you up. Also tinned salmon is good too.
Jellyb it's ok, nothing to worry about long term.
It burns loads of calories too and raises metabolic rate, that's the good news!
Extreme self care Jellyb, heal from the physiology up. The weight issue is for you to tackle if it's getting you down.
There is absolutely nothing wrong with Jellyb just as she is. Absolutely nothing at all.
On another thread we discussed loss, I thought I might share the name Grendine with you, my special friend. My little girl was conceived on a night H1 and I had cocktails. My grandma made her own syrups amoung them Grenadine but she couldn't spell and the label on the bottle said Grendine. This is a very precious syrup made from pomegranate seeds and is hard to make. It seemed appropriate. I know you counsel those with loss so I feel very safe sharing anything with you that distresses me.
This same Grandma had carmen of soda as well. Bizet would turn in his grave.
I am around if you need to chat awhile about the anxiety. It truly isn't about looks, only an English Prince would give up the beautiful wife Diana for the ordinary Camilla. My WH fish wife looks like an old barn door, scrawny and drunkard. It's about him not you. Your confidence in you and your body is an important gift to yourself. We are all shapes sizes colours and some of us have disabilities. I have a friend with a double mastectomy, who was worried she wasn't a woman any more, she rocks and can pull anywhere.....
Hugs
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Last edited by Vanilla; 12/14/1512:15 AM.
Freedom is just another word for nothing left to loose. V 64, WAW
