Thanks for you kind words Rouky. Ah having a meltdown, human for other's and under most circumstances appropriate and I would provide the same advice.
Re my sitch re-inforces why Mr Ex BD, and why he is now with his lovely Champion Bodybuilder. So it is a bit circular. I beat myself because I am not more like her physically (slim, athletic and strong) and mentally ( mentally tough and disciplined) and then I get depressed and then I beat myself for being depressed and then I feel bad because being depressed was why Mr EX BD, etc etc etc, etc. Big whopping emotional black hole....Aarrrggghhhh
