Newbie here - unsure of what to do

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When we do get together, everything about it is intense. It's like we can't get enough of each other. The kissing is passionate and it feels like more than just sex.

He also wants to hold me in bed or hug me throughout the day. He says it helps him in his healing process, which I don't understand at all. He tells me he wants to divorce me for peace, but apparently still needs me in his life on some level. This is all so overwhelming and confusing. Then I get upset after we have sex because I know he doesn't really want to work things out with me and is looking forward to divorce. But it feels so good to be with him, that I guess the denial helps me at least during those moments.

I've also thought that maybe if I'm sexually available to him, it will make him want me more. (like getting him to think this is what he'll be missing.)

Do i hug him, hold his hand (another thing he still likes to do), unwind with some wine and a movie after the kids are down, just like we used to? I I don't want to end up feeling the rejection even stronger if/when I realize it's all for nothing.

I know I sound desperate. It's because I very much am.
Any help?
Thoughts?