Well he is back to not contacting me. This yoyoing between complete silence and begging for attention is maddening.

What I have done to keep busy:

Decorated the house for Christmas
Wrapped some of the kids gifts
Went shopping for a couple of gifts
Talked to a few friends (not about my situation)
Helped my mom do some research
Cooked dinner
Did laundry
Watched a movie with the kids

Everyone says it gets easier to deal with. I'm anxiously awaiting.

Rain (moi): 40
Ex Fiance: 39
3 kids
On/off again EA & PA
Last BD by ow 12/15
Moved kids and myself back into our own place: 12/15