We were in a situation where my W gave it to me whenever I wanted it. But she usually didn't want it. And then at some point she seemed to never want it. So in order to quit putting pressure on her to have it so much, I masturbated a lot. She got mad at me for doing that.
I really think she liked having affairs because she could control every aspect of it and it was always exciting/interesting because it was never a commitment, was always limited by time and intensified by secrecy and the forbidden nature of it.
