I know what I was doing was wrong but in the moments I can't control it.
When I asked what if your WW said she couldn't control herself, you brought up her addictive personality. I was really referring to you. You excuse your own bad behavior by saying you can't control it. YES, YOU CAN CONTROL IT, AND SO CAN SHE! Talk about taking the easy road! You just shuck it off with you can't help it.
It is not about what you feel should work in your M. It is about doing the work that gets the right results. Do what works!