Jpeg, he gave her up in August finally, at least I think he did. They still work together and I don't snoop, so how would I know. Still claims it was never physical. But he travels a lot. He is still so angry and depressed all the time. I feel like every night when he walks in he is going to drop another bomb. I have no security at all and the stress is taking a toll.
On the other hand, he is showing signs of improvement. But it is so slow. It is incredibly stressful and unhealthy for me to live like this. I have no idea where I stand. I am trying to just assume he is staying and it will be my decision at some point to either say "I've had enough" or else he will continue improving to the point where we can work on this together. If he surprises me with another BD then I will be surprised but at least not in limbo anymore.
Working on detachment, which I am feeling more and more, but it is a process and I am nowhere near where I need to be. The break will be good.
