GB - ok I'll admit I'm scared. Scared to death that will completely end our R. He will see me as bitter and nasty (and OW just feeds into that) Even thinking about what to write and I am a puddle of tears again. Last night he texted again and asked if I want to go in on Christmas gifts for the kids I haven't told him we are going away for Christmas and now D19 is feeling guilty that her Dad will not see any of them on Christmas.
