Newbie here - unsure of what to do

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If your H is telling you right up front that it doesn't mean anything, then he's basically just using you to satisfy himself. I know it's hard (BELIEVE ME, I KNOW!) but I wouldn't want to do it under those circumstances. I think afterward I would feel horrible that I let myself be used in such a way. Of course, I've been so incredibly lonely and panicked lately that I can't be positive what my answer would be, but I do know that it would make me feel used after it was all over with. And, at that point, you're not going to be any better off than you are right now, but you're going to feel bad about yourseld. I'd say pass on it.