I miss you, Mona! You do so well with GAL. I'm learning from you. Ironically, I now find myself wondering if I really want H back at all anymore? His betrayal just doesn't speak very well of his character. Did I really choose so poorly? Sigh. Were you all over the place,emotionally, your first time around? Thank goodness everyone starts out shouting, IT TAKES TIME, to all the newbies. His little piece of paper (D) continues to inch forward, but at my pace, not his. It is making him crazy.
I empathize with you. I (mostly) want my H back. I want a better version, though. One committed to learning new skills, attending counseling, and who understands an apology. I get the feeling I'm now his back-up in case all else fails. Exactly what you wanted me to see? He needs me to move on, so he can be happy. I need to, so I can be happy. Hopefully, the car and job situation are both resolved this week. I'm ready to do something new!
Being taken for granted is a bad feeling. I don't like it. I did send him a letter a while back, wherein I validated all his feelings/complaints. I kept missing opportunities in "real life" but I really wanted him to know I listened, so I used lots of examples. No rainbows, birdsong, or glitter appeared...not sure if I wasted my time or not. I told him I only wanted him to understand I really did listen, so I validated like a fool, and apologized where appropriate.
I have a feeling this will take years. I wonder if I can last so long? One day at a time, right?
