She Wants Me to Leave 3rd Time .....EA or not EA?

[isittoolate]

Journal:

Not much to report on the DBing frontline.

There were some positives early in the week with W signing a note to me with a x and then eagerly accepting my offer to go running with her ( her regular female running partner couldn't run and W doesn't like running in the dark by herself)

Also W reached out to me for support re her upset and anxiety over her fathers illness.

The last 3 days I have galled and galled and galled.

A works Xmas party on Thursday - got to bed at 2am. We ended up in lap dancing bar! The girls in our party were pushing the men to go. I think they just like to see our discomfort when semi naked beautiful women ask us for a dance. I was discretion personified and turned down all requests for a 'private dance' NB it wasn't a seedy club, it was in Shakespeare's home city after all!

Friday another night out with my friends - got to bed at 1am
Sat/Sun - I've taken the boys to London - we had a fab time at the Winter Wonderland in Hyde Park and today we will visit the Tower of London. I made sure I put dozens of photos on FB showing what a good time we were having!

We get back at 5pm tonight.

W expressed her anxiety about the boys being in
London without her - this is the first time they have gone to London without her and London is our special city.

It is separation anxiety partly caused by the terrorist bombs in Europe. She always expresses how much she misses the boys even when she is in London overnight like on Monday night - doesn't she realise that if we separate she will see them a helluva lot less than now?

I would have invited W to London but she was already booked to go to her works Xmas Ball. I couldn't change the weekend as W was fully booked with her gal activities every weekend. Last night at the Ball she wore the dress I bought her for her bday - I asked her to send me a photo of her in the dress and she did - she looked great.

Today w is going to visit her Father in hospital - it is likely that he has lung cancer but we still don't know for sure. - he has also had a mini stroke.

So tonight is the first night in for both W and I since Wednesday, then the next busy week starts for all of us.