I have been hit by a personal hurricane since the last two months, I found out that my husband is having an EA could be something more. He initially said he wanted to work on the relationship, but as i started begging and pleading and he suddenly told me that he doesn't see any hope in this relationship. I moved out of the house for two weeks so that he could get some time to think. But nothing has changed. I am a very emotional person and I keep have massive anxiety attacks. I have several of them and each time my husband is more convinced that he doesn't want to be in this relationship. I am trying very hard to beat this anxiety . My thoughts starting going towards the EW and I think the worst. Lately i discovered that he has been emailing the other woman.
I had a successful week of DBing and 180 and then I backslides. Which I feel so miserable about. This weekend I went out drinking with couple of my girls friends and got completely drunk, which affected my anxiety attacks even more. and even more found that My H is still in contact with the other AW. I was so upset that I asked for a final separation and my husband decided to split all the financials two ways post december.
I am worried now that i have blown up all my chances and don't know what to do. Should I start all over again on the 180 and DBing. or is it too late.
Me- 36 H 32 S - two weeks M 5 yrs in Feb 2 months sleeping in different rooms
