I am a newcomer, its been two months since my life has completely hit by a storm. I found out my husband was having an EA with a colleague of his. when I found out i was Hysterical, hurt , begged, cried and did everything the Db says not to. Fastword, I moved out of the house for two weeks, as my husband wanted some space to think. I came back and since then i have had several emotional breakdowns. My husband doesn't love me anymore- we now sleeping in different bedrooms. He knows he has hurt me so much and is kind and looking out for me. But basically as soon as i bring up the topic of commitment he says he doesn't see any hope.
Last week I had a successful 180 week - but i backslides as i went out drinking with some girlfriends , came home and was so emotionally distraught. I also found that my husband is still in contact with the OW via email. I got angry and under a lot of emotional stressed asked him that I wanted a divorce so i can move on with my life. He has told me that until we sell the house and he will divide the assets equally, he will be staying in the same house . We still make dinner together and drive to work together. He said we will separate soon and doesn't see us being together makes any sense.
Is it too late for me to start doing the 180 again. I know I had one good week and I am cursing myself for backsliding and drinking so much . what should i do. Also i don't know what the outcome will be.. I just want to move on!!!
Me- 36 H 32 S - two weeks M 5 yrs in Feb 2 months sleeping in different rooms
