I have been a good girl this week. Realize I have been on the angry crazy train and needed to get off before I ruin any chance I have of rebuilding a r with h. I think its been a combination of being extremely tired from work and h being honest with his feelings on subjects which in turn touched nerves with me. My old self would have said nothing but this new, more vocal me, needs to learn when to keep my mouth shut, listen and let the small stuff go.
So this weekend, lots of texting been going on. Kept it light, no r talk, h talk, or giving my unasked for opinions -
Work wise - I spoke to the Store Manager and informed him I would like to step down from my position in the New Year and that I appreciate he may not have anything else suitable for me, but currently the hours I work don't give me a work/life balance. He understands what I would like and why, but really does not want to lose me from my position now I have the dept running well so asked for some time to come up with a solution. I have heard on the grapevine that he is going to offer me Mon - Fri with an early finish on a Friday when I want to catch the last flight or if h is coming to visit me the ability to pick him up from the airport.
So its a quandary, another decision to make. The days and hrs mean that h and I will now have the same days off so we can visit each other without having to keep taking holidays. It also means I can stay in the town I live and have made friends in. The downside is that I will still be on the op island to h, we will need to fly back n forth so finances will come into play, plus my job is physically causing me pain (but that will lesson when the season is over as right now i do a 9hr workout everyday and I am getting waaaay to old lol).
H says take it as it works for now and as things change between us then I can re address it. But I dont want to mess my boss around, he has been good enough to fight for me, I don't want to be disloyal to him. IDK, I am no good at this stuff.
