I was doing ok detaching until he brought up reconciliation and now I am hooked back in. I now think of future with him instead of a future moving forward without him. that could lead me to pursuing and making demands I should not be right now. It could also lead to more hurt and dissapointment.
It's funny that I have to not want him anymore in order for him to want me.
We both need to let things cool off. This was very stressful. Problem is I like everything out in open and am pretty direct and he likes space. This takes a lot of strength for me to just let go right now. Not force things.
I'm going to a party tomorrow so that might help.
Me: 42 H: 43 Twins age 5 Physically Separated 7/2015
