W is taking the D up to her grandmother's house about 1 1/2 hours away. The hand off went about as well as could be expected. Didn't say much, just gave D a kiss and let her get in the car.
Supposed to be meeting up with some of my buddies tonight for whatever we get into. Had a very interesting convo with my sister via text. She asked if the whole mess comes down, the W self destructs as most people have agreed, would I actually want her back being this is the 3rd time in 10 years she's done something like this. Which, honestly is something I've struggled with, which has maybe made detachment fairly easy this time. I know I don't deserve what was done. The faults in our marriage, on both sides, didn't give her the right to put me here again, and this time involve our child's future. On one hand I want my D to have a whole family, and not be scarred by all of this, she deserves a whole happy family. On the other hand, I don't know that after this storm, that the trust can ever be rebuilt. I know my father would say, just like in Matthew 8 to forgive 70x7, but, this time has really stick in my craw. Just wanted to vent that here.
Me:36 W: 27 D2 T10 M:2.5 Filed D 1/14/16 BD: Sep 15 A Discovered: 11/17/15 She moves out 11/19/15
