Focus, it sounds like you doing fantastically well for 2 months . We're on the same timeline and I'm not throwing myself out there as much as you. Enjoy your weekend.
Thank you Scrant. I'll keep checking in on your thread to see how you're doing.
I'm lucky in that I work in a sociable job, with a lot of very sociable people
Originally Posted By: shotgun
Hi focus22. I hope to draw inspiration from your GAL activities!
I *am* really nervous about it all though, and sometimes totally petrified. But what are the other options? They don't seem half as appealing to me.
Originally Posted By: shotgun
It's interesting how horrible we are in our S eyes. Funny thing here is that they don't seem incredibly excited about having moved on. I expected my wife to be prancing happily about after she left but she just seemed very angry. I predict that your husband will go through a good bit of anger as well.
God, he was so incredibly angry at me the night he left. Everything was my fault. He was even questioning why we ever got married in the first place. Part of me is totally shocked by that, part of me is like, wtf?!
I don't know what is going through his mind at the moment, or what he is up to. I could try and guess, but what would be the point?
I've discovered that going down that train of thought leads me to feel all over the place, frightened, stressed, unable to deal with things and to function. So I've been trying to catch myself and to stop myself as much as I can.
My part time job has been helping, as I'm doing so many hours at the moment, and it's really busy. It might be harder in January, when things slow down a bit.
At some point I'm guessing my H might want to see me? But maybe not, I don't know. And I have no idea what he might say or do.
My hunch is that he'll throw some anger in my direction. I'm not really very good at dealing with that with people in general. I'm *very* good at diffusing anger and calming people right down. But it's time to face that too now, in my life, right?
Originally Posted By: jjal
I'm 5+ months in, and believe me, it does get better. The sleep gets easier, but every now and then, a sleepless night will creep up on me and remind me I still have a long way to go.
I've had to just let go. And that's been the hardest thing I've ever done, but also the thing that has saved my sanity and my life.
Like you, the GAL activities have been vital in recovery and growth. Keep at it! Keep telling yourself "I will be ok", and commit to it. You can do this!
Thank you. I'm so incredibly grateful I discovered this place, and for all people who have taken the time to share their experiences on their own threads as well as on mine. I can't begin to describe the difference that it's made to me.
