Precisely at this time two months ago he was saying horrible things about me, and about our M to me. I stayed really calm the whole time.
I know that after he walked out the door I felt really desperate, but I can't quite remember what that feeling was exactly like.
How do I feel now? I had another nightmare and didn't sleep much last night.
Today has been a good day though. I went to my part time job, I had two pieces of really good news for my own business, and I bought a really sexy top to go with my new foxy shoes (going for the heels, jeans and nice top look for my GAL Christmas nights out this coming week). I'll do my hair as well...new colour.
How difficult is all of this? Unspeakably difficult and horrendously painful. I'm not even sure if I want to carry on with my M at this point. I certainly have no inclination to see, speak, or have any sort of communication with my H for now. I'm enjoying having this time to myself and enjoying getting to know myself again a little.
I guess time will tell. It's still all very new.
Originally Posted By: shotgun
Happy for you focus! Keep reaching out and keep working on yourself. I would love to be at your parties! Guess I will have to find one closer to home. I second your statement abut the good vibes coming back around to you. Not a big believer in karma but I have learned through my cancer that there are a lot of people who I have connected with over the years that poured out their hearts to me when I really needed it. Sadly my wife abandoned me when I was at my lowest point. I am now seeing it clearly however that if she could do it at that point then I really had nothing with her any way.
Ending on a happy note, I hope tomorrow brings a spring to your step and a smile to your face. God Bless you and thinking of you always.
Sorry to hear you were so unwell, shotgun. I can't begin to imagine how difficult and painful that all must have been.
Hope you have something nice lined up for the weekend? And God bless you too.
