I'm not quite sure of my legal status - everything is signed and in the hands of a judge. Should be final any day now unless the holidays slow everything way down.
When XH ended his relationship with OW and moved back to town, a lot of people asked me if I thought it was the first step towards reconciliation. That has not been the case. While OW is truly gone, he is just as distant towards me as ever. While I have no idea what he is feeling or thinking, he sure behaves like someone who is uncomfortable and ashamed. He's not coming to any of the girls Christmas shows, presumably because I am going to be there as well and one is at my church.
I know a lot of people here reach the conclusion that they do not wish to be reconciled to their WAS. Truth be told it has been a very long time since I could envision even the possibility of ever having any type of marital relationship wit him. But... in all honesty , I am not ok being divorced. I'm not ok with my family being fractured. I'm not ok with losing such a chunk of time with my daughters. Sigh.
Today he had the girls and got called into work before school. Instead of calling me, he left the girls with a neighbor, who supposedly was going to take D7 and her own daughter to school but then got called into work herself. There's a lot of detail (and I sincerely doubt he's given me the whole story)- but basically my seven year old cut school today. I found out when the school called me. I find this whole situation very depressing. I also have reason to believe that he handled the situation simply by telling her that "Mom was going to be really upset".
I've read quite a few threads from members of my "DB Class" where the posters have started dating again. I still can't envision doing that. I've come to the conclusion that my picker is busted.
