After the kids go to bed I pick up an iPad that wack.. I see the FaceTime log of W FaceTiming the OM at 12:50am yesterday.. I lose it. W sees me agitated and asks what's wrong.
I start by asking, "what do you want to do"? W is in FULL CONTROL. She says there is nothing to discuss and she does not want to get worked up again. But I can't control myself. I keep talking.
I say stuff like, "I wish you would pack up your s#@! and leave". She replies, "I am not leaving". I continue with the questions of OM (I know it's wrong and gets me no where and makes things worse but I can't control myself..). She replies, "what does it matter about him? He is not the problem with our MR. Removing him does not fix how I feel about you. I do not want to work on our MR."
She also shares her thoughts that I am only upset and want to work at MR because affair. That only now after there is someone else who shows interest in her that I am ready to work at it but there is nothing to work at (that I showed up to the game after the game ended and everyone left). That I had to be hit with the affair and shocked to fall to realize what was going on with her[/b].. these are some of the tings she said!!
She tries to end it by saying, "I am removing myself from this conversation" and sits on the other end of couch while I just go at it (jabs of OM).
I need help as I simply cannot control these thoughts of W and OM.
