LBH w/ a WW trying to save my M (6)

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*Long entry* lots of journaling dialog -

We had a couple good conversations the rest of the evening. I was walking down the hallway. She wrapped her arms around me and started crying. I held her for a minute then pulled away. I said " I need to tell you something that I think you already know. If you continue down this path and D me at this point I do not see us coming back together as you have described."
She said " Well that will be your choice"
I said "I know"
She said "If you will not give me time to heal, you time to heal and then us time to heal. That will be your choice. This whole time I have been asking you to give me space and time to heal and you said no, no, no. You have forced me to this place to get the space I need to heal."
I said "I understand this is how you feel. I feel I never told you no. I even told you I would move out and give you space if you would stop talking to OM. You refused. I have not kept you here and you could have left at anytime."
She said "This is my house and my kids live here"
I said "It is my house too and I even left for several weeks. You told me you would stop talking to OM and work on our M so I left. Then I found out you lied and never stopped."
She said " staying at my XH house for 4-5 days does not count and you don't know what I was doing."
I said "it was 3 weeks and I do know. You know I checked the phone records and you never stopped talking to him like you said you would. Regardless, this is where we are today. I do not want this D, this is not the path I would choose or am choosing."
She said "I do not want this D either. I never thought we would be here. There is a big part of me that wants us to stay together for D4. "
We sat quietly for a couple minutes.
I then said " I guess you have some decisions to make before the 18th. And what is your plan? I don't think you need to have one right at this moment but if we're not going to court next week I would like to know your plan. Maybe write it down"
She said "I told you my plan."
We sat quietly for a few minutes.
She said "You said something the other day that has really stuck with me. You said I insult your family. I have said some terrible, hurtful things about them and I was wrong. I should have never said those things. they were wrong and I was wrong to say them."
I said "Thank you, I appreciate that."
She said " I have also said very hurtful things about your past. I was wrong to say it. I do not believe those things about you and I was wrong to say it."
I again said " thank you, I appreciate you saying that"
We went our separate ways for a bit.