Caliguy, thank you for stopping in and sharing your experience. I agree with you, i think a lot of my pain is the fact that i wasnt the one she still chooses or has pushed me aside for someone else. My pride is hurt very badly.
I do look back into the past especially at this time of the year and see memories that we shared and can stand thinking someone else is there. This is my issue to get over.
I do look at myself and still see some lingering things that need fixing. I have come a long way from BD, but there are still some pieces still there.
As far as the children go, I get it, you are 100% right. I have stepped back many times and done nothing because i could see this as well. Then i also have moments after both are breaking down to me and say to myself am i living up to everything i always told them i would be for them.
These kids should not have to go through this, but i definetely can not use them as a pawn either.
I will speak with W about the counselor for them just to make sure they are coping with everything ok and go from there.
I just read your most recent update and happy to see you are still working on things. I really commend your patience and commitment to the process. i am sure at times it felt impossible as i can feel also. Thank you for sharing so much
M 37 W 34
T 12 M 8 D 7 S 4
Need break 4/12/15 W no ring 7/7/15
Separate room 4/12/15 Separate living suggested 8/15 W moved out 11/1/15
