This feeling is the spark of change Mona52. This is you moving out of your comfort zone of doing what you have always done. It feels like anxiety and it feels scary and we doubt ourselves. But this overwhelming feeling has the taste of a small win in to me. Your brain is caught up in recognizing the potential loss of H, not the win of self respect and self care. The win of implementing all you know, all you have been working so hard on. You are a changing neural pathways here. You are changing your life.
Feel this fear and celebrate yourself!
JellyBxxx
I am changing my life. This will be a long day, but tomorrow I will be a different person. I will be more of a separate person. More hooks my H has in me (That I placed in me) will have gone. I guess I should be ready to fill in those holes. All the time I spent worrying about my H's bills will have to be filled with other thoughts. Thoughts about me I hope... We will have to wait until tomorrow to see.
Me: 42 H: 45 M: 18 yrs T: 20 yrs D: 17 D: 15 S: 12 I kicked him out 8/21/15 I will DB until March 21st 2017, that is it!
