kavikratu

[roist]

I am not on the board much these days. It is a great place and as you know a super support network. But I couldn't not reply here.

You are phenominal. Seriously. Supporting your current treatment shows strength. Staying after affair shows character. Giving up drinking shows guts and wisdom. But you are phenominal to remain signed up for another two years.

Your anger is justified. Feel it and release it. It is not your friend. Accept it as it is normal but find s way to get past it. Don't let it fester. The feelings of missing simple signs of companionship and affection is also normal. I am sure that that is in my future and yours. For the moment we have reserved that spot for our wives. Until the time we decide to remove that preference, we are willing to put up with shite with the aim of giving what we want the best chance to happen. During this crap time when we can rise above being bogged down by feelings, we are becoming better men and ultimately better partners. This will stand to us and we are also learning so much about good relationships and any future R will have a better base.

The only thing I can assure you if is that your situation will not continue indefinitely as it is. It will change. That is s fact. Time will tell what direction it'll take.

I asked you a Q a while back about doing something different.I don't have an answer for you but I asked it to get you thinking of something to try. Maybe st family meals share a joke.Anyway people in our situations easily get it into their head that they have tried everything and nothing did or will work . I am guilty of that too. It is not a good mindset to have.

Even if I don't write again soon, know that my best thoughts are with you.