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[Mona52]

I did it. I went with option 1, but I did not text him until this morning.

He did one more thing last night that made it almost impossible.

He sent me one last text, with one word, my name.

Wow. That man saying my name really shook my entire foundation.

So I texted him this morning when he knows I would not have any excuse not to look at my phone.

Me: I can't. Sorry.

I cant help but feel I made a huge mistake. Logically I agree with everyone when they say "He has to feel a loss. He has to miss you."

But for 20 years I have been saving him. Even last time. I meant it when I said I was a terrible DB'er. If he asked me for $200, I would have given him $400.00

Logically, I might have done the right thing, but emotionally, I cant even look at myself in the mirror.