Waiting played out well for me. The X did inform me of the change in his plans to pick up kid. So crisis averted.

I can't help but wonder if there was something different that I could have done the past few weeks? Maybe I shouldn't have called him, even if it was for kid? Maybe he felt that I was pursuing him?

It's this ambivalence that's killing me. He would ask me if I had anything else to say to him; what was it that he wanted me to say? And why when things seemed to be improving did he have to run back to the OW?

I guess I will never know and will just have to get on with my life.

Skated for 2 hours today and fell only once. Not too bad. Caught a movie with kid.

Regretted not going on a trip for the holidays as this was what we used to do. Would have been good to get away for a while.

You can call me Dory/ Grl.

As a wise fish once sang,"Just keep swimming!"

It's no use to go back to yesterday because I was a different person then.