Court date coming up. It's bizarre. Because right now I am thinking that if I am stressed, husband must be even more so. I am worried for what stress can do to his health. I know I shouldn't feel this way. I want to text and see how he is holding up. Although who knows, once in court He might end up acting in a way unfair to me, in which case I will regret having compassion.
I would imagine he would have to feel embarrassed and ashamed to be petitioned for child support. That's only something that happens to dead beat dads. I Or maybe he is mad at me for it. He says it's due to poor communication. i think he's in denial. I can't believe it had to come to this. I am sad and nervous and I miss him. I don't feel this way very often now. But I also mistrust him.
If he made an effort to communicate with me I would have more trust. He never was able to communicate.
Ok I'm just rambling and I have to get sleep.
Me: 42 H: 43 Twins age 5 Physically Separated 7/2015