Wife checked out

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Yes, the first goofball was the guy on the softball team that I confronted. He broke it off with her three weeks ago. She has just been trolling Tinder and singles groups and meeting new people. She has a date with one tonight. She believes that she has to experience someone different sexually to "get it out of her system" I think she is going to try tonight. The first guy wouldn't go that far because he didn't feel comfortable that she was married and probably didn't want the possibility of crossing my path again.

I know that women go through changes at this general age and many of them have unanswered questions and what ifs. Not all act upon them but many do. I'm really not that hung up on the actual sex part so much as the broken commitments, lies, and affect on the children. Since I exposed her first attempt she seems to be pretty open and honest about what she feels she needs to do and why she feels she needs to do it. I have been trying my best to let it play out and focus on myself and our kids. I can't control what she does nor do I want to, I just need to keep it together for the kids.

I'm sure I can forgive her if she repents and does the work on herself. She is a good woman and mother who has lost her way somehow and needs to walk this path on her own. I will of course lovingly support her if the time comes. I do believe that love conquers all and I am willing to stand today, I don't know about tomorrow but today I stand.

I will be going on my own "spirit walk" starting tomorrow morning. This will be the first time since BD that I will actually be doing something just for me. She asked me where I was going and when I would get back. I just said I don't know. Honestly I don't, I am just going west and camping somewhere quiet. I might find a local juke joint out there and mingle with the locals.