Hello , haven’t posted here in a while since it was becoming addictive logging every night and morning. It has been 3 months since my wife left with my daughters, I haven’t seen them since. The last time I communicated with my wife was over text 2 months and it was her asking me for a divorce. (pretty childish in my mind do it over txt) I have been patient all these months. I hired a L on 10/28 and all ppwk was submitted to start the process. After thanksgiving holidays everything was being delayed. Today I finally got a call and was informed the process server finally got the serving papers and my wife should be served by the end of the week. Unfortunately I have the court date until Jan 6 of 2016 , which [censored]!!! My lawyer said she would call my wife after she gets served in order to see if she agrees to an arrangement in order to have my girls for Christmas. I hope she does! I am waiting patiently again another month. I have gotten to a point in my life where I truly don’t miss her anymore. I love her and I wish we could work things out , but I DON’T NEED HER TO BE HAPPY. It’s weird but I am really starting to hate this woman , I never in my life would have imagine myself hating her , when I have always loved and cared for her. I have been happy alone at my house. I feels awesome forgetting to take out the trash and not getting yelled at. I am happy alone, something I was always fearful. I don’t know if the hate is normal? But I have prayed to God for it to go away. Work is keeping me busy and recently got a promotion so there is a positive. More than anything I miss my 2 daughters. I have missed so much time from them , I don’t know of any human being with no heart that would do that to a father. I know Christmas is going to be tough but I will get through it and in the end ill be standing. I still have hope I can save the marriage , weird thinkgin that when im starting to hate her?
