Now what?

[melweb]

One month post BD.

I thought the GAL was going to be the hardest part as I am new here and have no friends or family, or a life to even get, and the job prospects have not panned out yet. I am going to church and that has helped me get out of the house.
However, the detaching part has been a huge challenge as well. I am, by nature, a rather emotional person, and I tend to take things personally. A look, a tone, his bad moods, etc makes me rather upset.This was the working on me part, and to not let so much bother me and get under my skin. It is--I am-- a work in progress.

Plus it is really hard to detach when he still lives here.

I do believe on I am the right track though. He is sending some mixed messages: one minute he is trying to be cold and distant (see--this would normally bother me) and the next he is seeking me out to talk to me about something trivial.

I really don't feel like he wants to leave, but feel like he is crying out for help/attention. Nights when he could easily just go to his room to watch tv, he sits on the couch. He could easily pass by my closed bedroom door without a word, but pokes his head to ask or say something. Again, I am trying not to read too much into this, as he did text me last to to say "I'm still leaving at this point"--I said "Ok"

I am pretty sure he is MLCing. Correct me if anyone thinks I am way off here. He really seems to want validation in how he looks, what he's wearing, etc. And today as he left for biz trip, he leaned in for me to kiss on the cheek. I did and said "have a good trip."