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[Mona52]

Thanks PP. I am completely using you to give me accountability
I was very discouraged when I couldnt breath. It feels like I can breath so much better than a year ago, so I figured that is not a problem I would have. But I can work through it.

Change just never seems to go as I plan it to. Why cant something just work like the picture in my head?

I will admit though, your last line "Believe in yourself and your body, it's your friend and wants to help you with your goals."
When I read this I went totally negative. My mind replied
"Mona, why should you believe in yourself. You will never get in shape. No matter how you do things the right way, in the end it won't matter one bit. Nothing will work out for you."

But this is good! Right? Because, if I DO eat right and if I DO run every day, I can prove to that negative part that what I thought is a total lie. This is one of those goals that will definately work if I follow the rules, right?

Not like DB'ing, where you can be perfect and it could all still fall apart.