Hi BrightFuture- I am so sorry. As everyone else has already stated, do not be so hard on yourself. You can't blame yourself that your H is broken.

Remember to focus on what you can control: you.

Thinking of you.

Me 41, H 47, M 15 yrs, S11, S13
BD 1: 11/4/14 we work on it; really I pretzel myself
BD 2: 3/31/15 H goes down to "dorm room"
8/15: H back to MBR
10/15: H back in dorm room
1/18: H files, now divorced