Time to let go ....How (4)

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So been busy the past few days. Bunch of stuff with the kids and my own stuff. Been feeling pretty good but then something the past day or two had me feeling really low and wishing our family was together again.
I think it had to do with Sunday we all went to a Disney show together. We had bought tickets for this months ago. I look back and should have just had my mother come with me and the kids instead of reminding W about it. We had a great time and no issues. I think this spun me for a day or two. I also had a few xmas parties and was getting some good attention from the females. Even though it was really nice at the time the next days I was just missing W.

Then today the real part happened. Picked up D7 for dentist and she tells me she had to tell W to get off the phone last night while she was trying to sleep. She said she was face timing a boy. Not sure what to think about it as she was telling me while on the phone at first with W there and she wasn't stopping her. Then D7 said well it could have been a girl but I think she said this because I prob got quiet as I was thinking.
I just wish W would not be doing these things in front of the kids. I have to admit it really has me spinning today. I want to say something to her but I know I can't.

I guess I need to get back to very limited contact.