I did contact H this morning. He has not replied yet. I bought tickets to go out new years. I have three kids, so this will be the first new years I went out for in many years.

Now I need to find a place for my kids. My oldest (17) has a few choices, but she wants to stay home and invite her friends over our house.
My middle will probably want to go where ever her BF is, and I think she also wants o invite him to our house.

My youngest is 12... So he cant go with the girls if they go out. He can go to my sis's house. But I hate that idea so much.

My D is dead set on a party at our house, and it would be the safest place for my kids. So if I cant think of a better solution, I will not go out and stay home with my angels so she can have a party.

To be perfectly honest, this would not be a hardship for me.The only reason I want to go out so bad on new years is because the crowd I go out with Fridays nights are done by midnight every week. And I like to dance ALL NIGHT. So I will finally get the opportunity to really dance.

But it is very very very hard for me to imagine not spending new years with my children. I am ALWAYS with them.

Anyway... My D texted my H yesterday and asked if he could spend new years with them so she could have a party.

He replied "IDK, I might be going out myself."

I dont know does not really help me. I need an answer one way or another. I sent him a text and maybe I used too much guilt, but it is true:

Me: Please reconsider and give me new years. I take care of everything else alone. I don't ask you for help. Let me go out new years.


I feel guilty or pointing out that he is not helping in any way. But it is how I felt when I heard his IDK response so it is what I texted.

We will see how he replies.


Me: 42
H: 45
M: 18 yrs T: 20 yrs
D: 17
D: 15
S: 12
I kicked him out 8/21/15
I will DB until March 21st 2017, that is it!