Hi Pink. I think it's great you soul searched and accepted you still love H.
For me it's a step in the right direction re your thought process and it's one mental struggle you can let go of.
With the love can come forgiveness and understanding IN TIME!! !!! For now move forward with Pinks life Let H see that Pink will be ok and she will come through this a far better person who puts herself first and lives her life the way she wants
I've posted since the start how your H seems to be Classic MLC and if he is then he has to work through those issue himself
Back to DBing and back to the wild Pink who has been buried inside because of life and the day to day grind.