What is the context you're talking about: what you want in terms of your M; want you want for you as an individual?
I have been questioning everything. On the one hand, I don't want to give up on my marriage and find myself constantly rehearsing what I'm going to say when he comes to his senses and admits his mistake and willingness to come back. On the other hand, I know I shouldn't get my hopes up and that I should move on. I don't know if he has the capacity to treat me like I deserve to be treated. Will he ever be able to send me the kinds of texts he sent to the OW? Will I truly be able to become a loving wife again with him? There is so much pain. I suppose I would try. We owe it to our kids. Neither of us have siblings and both sets of parents are long gone. The core family unit is all that our kids have and now that is at risk.
As for GAL.... I am searching to find my identity and who I want to be and what I want to accomplish the rest of my life.
