I am very sorry you find yourself here because I know you are in pain and suffering a lot at this moment in time.
But I am also glad you found this forum because you will find some peace of mind, some direction to take you out of this insanity you are in right now.
First, I understand you have only 1 child? Make sure you keep yourself in control so there is no danger whatsoever to your little one. Second, choose a good friend that will have the patience to listen to your right now.
You need to develop some kind of support group for yourself, if that is possible.
It is also important that you realize that going crazy won't solve anything and much less attract your H back into the M.
I do not get why this OW, that is married, is sending you pics as proof of your H infidelity. This is dirty and is not doing you any good.
Protect yourself, block this OW, she is a waste of air. For sure you do not have any control on her actions, but you need to protect yourself from this kind of garbage.
About your H, let him be for awhile. Stop the phone calls, texting, pics from the kids. Yes, I know, at some point you want to do this because it will keep you closer to him, even if it is always a hell, but right now you are managing everything from fear and that is not good.
Stop yourself, breath and then you will start seeing things a little more clear.
Please, please, do not get involved in all of this. You H also needs some space to think and sort things out. Give some time and keep posting. Use the board to let go on the bad feelings, it will help. Why do I know?
My story started july 2014, I did a lot of bad stuff, made a trillion mistakes, and finally got to the point that I decided to follow the steps on the book, the advices of so many people here. And I feel much better now.
