I've been sorta using him actually, from the beginning of this ordeal. As I've grown, I find myself less and less concerned about his responses/actions... It's more about putting me first. I use him to work through the feelings. I unload and vent and let go a little more. Sorta my M.O. Not saying this works for everyone, but I have to admit... At this stage, I have little to say to him and don't feel much of a burden on my heart in terms of unsaid stuff.
I think I'd rather have all my teeth pulled... Without nocacain even... than have to read a lengthy letter written by Matt.
I was reading that silly site Texts from your Ex. Sorta put things in perspective. He sounds much like those texts.
He has such a long way to go and I'm not sure I'm even interested in him anymore,.. Even physically. I'd like someone taller, burlier, strong with a beard... Blond maybe? Kind, MELLOW. Relaxed. Healthy...
Anyway. Not looking for anyone right now. I'm enjoying some attn I'm getting from men and trying to get straight with money. That's the plan.
Matt can pound dirt.
"You know, it's times like these when I realize what a superhero I am." Tony Stark/Iron Man
“Focus on what you can do, then do it with all your heart.” Lois Wilson
