My day turned out ok considering. I do believe your advice, I'm just having a hard time practicing it right now. I mean, for Gods sake we have known each other since we were kids and now she is treating me like an annoying coworker or something. We were always able to share everything with each other and now I'm here being mr mom and can't even talk to my best friend.
I will say, even though I didn't get to work until after 10:00 this morning, I did the work of five strong men today. Don't know if it was refocused energy or what. I'm going to take off for a while and camp out in the desert to get my head straight. She will need to take care of things while I heal a bit. I hate to take a break from the daily routine with the kids but after this mornings breakdown I feel like I need to immerse myself in natures solitude to center my emotions.
She has me tightly in her claws right now and I need a break.
Hopefully I will move ever so slightly toward detachment by removing myself from the equation. I still find it difficult to STFU when we communicate, so l will be where there is no cell phones and no distractions so I can really swim around with my thoughts and my soul.
M: 39 W:38 D: 11 S: 7 T: 18 M:13 I suspect problem: 8/15 ILYB: 9/15 Never quit on love I ask her to leave:10/15
