I have hired a lawyer and done all my financials. Waiting for our pensions to be valued. Still nothing legal in place. H texted me again late on Sat night saying he will love me forever. I know it is his guilt, or he was drunk. I did not respond although I really wanted to I know he is "cake eating". Is that the right expression ? I have come a long way since last year when I felt I had nothing to live for or look forward to. I still don't look forward. But I am living. I have no thought, intention, or desire to have any R other than with H and of course my kids. I have enough of them to keep me busy, occupied, and to give my love to - they are my true blessing - just can't believe H is willing to through them aside for his new lifestyle
