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[Mona52]

I hate the day after I see him. Every few minutes my mind plagues me with extremely urgent, critical reasons what I HAVE to contact him. I wont. I can easily resist the temptation because I know my mind is just lying to me right now.

It does not help that I had this dream last night that still feels so real.

I am getting by because I keep refocusing on something I have threatened to do every year, but this year I actually did it! I have about 80% of my christmas shopping done! I did it last night while I was supposed to be resting. My D needed to get socks for school so I had to take her to the store. While I was there I picked up my lay-away and now I am all but done.

I actually have a list with everyone's names on it and there are the gifts written. I have never been so organized in my life. Usually my H spends all the money. So the last pay before christmas (which is usually the day before christmas) I run out and try and get everyone.

I placed all this junk on lay-away at the very beginning of November and I was able to slowly pay it off in chunks.

I have 3 kids, so I got the movie the exorcist from my eldest to give to him. That was the only movie that ever freaked him out and he hates it, lol.
I got the movie Interview with a Vampire from my middle child to give to him. He cant look at that without thinking of me, but he does not know I know that.
Did I mention, he does not have a dvd player?
I got a Chia Head for my S to give him.
OMG, I cant help but giggle.
I only have a few odds and ends to grab, and I need to get stocking stuffers and I am done!

So every time my brain tries to drive me to painville, or memory lane, I re-steer to done-with-shopping-town, and everyone there is standing in the streets cheering and clapping for me.

Then someone whispers "You still gotta wrap it"... Ugh...