spoke to OW..the 1 he said he has no contact with

[Rain75]

So long and short of it. My so and i have 3 children he cheated with an ex while i was pregnant. The entire time serious PA. I did my pregnancy alone he was out almost every night. All of our money waa spent on her.

After i gave birth the PA ended but the worst EA took its place. He was depressed. Always on the phone or texting her.

Cut to a few months ago when she told him she has a man now. He cried and was depressed for weeks.

Over the last 2 years theyve met a few times. For the last year weve fought a lot because id hear things n ask him he would scream it was all a lie. That he has had no contact since last year. But he still had a phone code and he would ignore a lot of late night and early morning calls.

He would fight with me saying i need to concentrate on us n our family n move on bc he did.

However i now spoke to ow she sent me a few screen shots from just a few days ago of him being lovey dovey and telling her he thinks of her constantly.

He has been emotionlly distant. Ive always maintained it was because the EA was still going on to which he would reply that i was crazy

Im devasted. It feels like that first BD only more intense. The betrayal. And his response has been hateful. Telling me he is glad this happened so that HE can have a great life now n live in peace

He has been texting her as well calling her a liar and telling her that she is a pos for coming between him n our kids. Then goes on to say he lovea her n never meant to hurt her. I never get i love you.

Because you see...its never his fault.

But i know him. This happened. And He still wants her and has no true remorse about lying and hurting me.

He just called me to tell me he has done nothing wrong. That she is twisting some things n lying about others. Why did he call me instead of texting it?

Because she told him if he called her a liar again she would send me a lot more proof. He is scared i will screen shot it n she will follow through

He has spent the last year telling her we werent together. And monitoring pics his family puts on FB of our kids. Theyre only allowds to post if the kids pics are them at my house or at the park etc. (We live apart but we are always in one anothers houses) he told her that even when he was with me it was only for the kids.

His black of remorse and the coldness the crumbs ive gotten while he is wining n dining her. Being loving n sweet and telling her every song makes him think of her just kills me

And im not saying i handled things well because i absolutely did not. I did everything DR says NOT to do. Cried. Guilted. Begged for reassurance. Demanded he stop contact. And fought with him at least once a week. Threw the affair in his face etc

Btw shes his ex because she cheated on him. Confirmed by her

Im rambling now. Scattered. Im sorry. I feel like if im going crazy

I was scared to go dark thinking it would push him to her or someone else. But i need to go dark for my own sanity

Any advice or tips would be greatly appreciated. I need to heal..move on and find a way to be okay for our childrens sake.

Thanks for reading.