Mutatio, your right in that there is a part of me that wants to punish husband. I want him to experience the hurt that I have. It is hard for me to remain compassionate, He said that he was miserable and depressed. I imagine it is true because of the amount of liquor bottles we found in past and seeing his weight gain. I have to remember that he hurts too but I feel like he did not have to make this choice. I had frequently communicated with him a willingness to work through our problems and he never wanted to hear it.
Basically I am just keeping my thoughts to myself. I am letting him lead. I am remaining friendly and staying open right now. compassion would help but as time goes on I feel less and less. It's time to reread some relationship books I think.
Me: 42 H: 43 Twins age 5 Physically Separated 7/2015
