Hi tl2. I just caught up with your story. It is a bit surreal as I feel like so much of what you described is exactly what I've been going through. I felt like I was reading my journal! I'm so sorry to hear that you are in the final D stages. I am both saddened and encouraged by your story. Saddened because those of us on this side of the road.... Who have acknowledged our part in the problem.... Don't always have the power to swing the situation. Encouraged by your strength and resilience.