My Story.....

[Nate W]

Hello Mr. Bond...Thanks!

I definitely started to take her for granted after a certain point and got lazy and wasn't connecting with her emotionally like I should have been. Once I started getting depressed and going to a bad place I didn't want the nieces and nephews to come over anymore as well as not ever wanting to spend time with her and her friends. I would push her away to go hang with her friends and I would stay home and drink alone. I would go out to the bars with my friends but it was just to get sloppy drunk to try and take away the pain. I think the thing that hurt her the most was me not letting her in to help me when I really needed help. The only time she saw me cry was the day my Dad was diagnosed with cancer.

After we separated she said the very first time we met all those years ago she could just see in my eyes that I was in pain but thought it was something she could help me through. Growing up we never showed very many emotions or very much love and I didn't ever truly know how to do either.

So when Dad died I thought I had to be the strong one and didn't let her in when I needed her most. I'm pretty sure this is what totally broke her heart. We had the separation talk about a year prior to when we did separate but I was always one to talk my way out of those situations and going to counseling and always promised to change and did for awhile but always fell back in the same rut.

After the separation I started my counseling and I learned so much about myself and got all the old negativity out. I just wish I would've went sooner but it took that big of a blow to finally wake me up. She definitely sees all the changes and is proud of me but is really scared I will fall back to the same thing.