When I found my wifes journal the other day, I forgot to mention some of her thoughts for everyone. Before Xmas '14, I had been having alot of anxiety and health issues. I went to the Dr the week before our trip to FL for Xmas. I was a wreck. I felt terrible and had major anxiety like never before. ( She had also become OCD with cleaning). The Dr did blood work and discovered I was very anemic. I ended up having a series of 5 IV infusions at the hospital to get my iron back up. I didnt feel that well in FL and have been losing alot of weight. ( she is 5'7, 128 to begin with, went to 105lbs). I cant eat much and feel nauseas, and very full. The Dr gave me something for anxiety but I dont take it everyday. I need to. Haha. I just dont feel good and dont know why. I took a hormone level test last week and am waiting for results from the pharmacist. She thinks they are out of balance and I am sure they are at my age 52. I really dont know what is wrong, Ive never felt like this before. Mid Life Crisis? at 50. She was 51. Right now I have a stomach ache and feel a good headache coming on. Such a joy. (she was on a Corgard for migraines for 22 years, spring of 14 she tried to quit cold turkey. We spent the night in hospital thinking she may be having heart attack. She then weened herself off the meds thru the rest of the year. Still uses Imitrex injections for Migraines, 4 times monthly plus imitrex pills for lesser head aches.
I am not sure if these were the first stages of her MLC or what was happening. I was just there to comfort and hold her thru these times. She never mentioned anything regarding amiss in marriage or relationship. Once affair began in mid Feb. ( her timeline), she says I should have told you more about anxiety. Now we are 9 months since BD.
I want to giver her journal back so she can read it. I just dont know if that is a good idea. She will probably turn it against me for reading it. Any thoughts?
