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[Mona52]

Thanks Gmum and mut!

I finally gave up on Friday. I had such a busy weekend planned so I just worked on that.

Friday i went out with the group and I had a great time. They asked if I was coming to the New Years party.

I have never not spent New Years with my children.

So I sat there thinking about New Years. Immediately I jumped to "No, cant come, sorry." Because of the kids and also the fact that I was thinking about looking for a different group of friends. But I really did want to join them for new years, so I said yes.

I am not going to dump these friends because of my mom. I an just going to continue to have fun.

So I dances all night Friday and had fun. I thought about the A a bit during the night, but I was not pulled down to a depression.

Saturday I threw a party for all of my kids friends. It was a star wars party. At 10:00 am we popped the first movie in and a house full of teenagers watched 5 of the six star wars movies all day in my living room.

I wanted to watch with them, but when I woke up Saturday I was completely fine, but as I got the house ready for the party my right arm started hurting worse and worse. Finally, I picked up a pair of jeans and the pain was too much and my right arm was basically useless.

I am a database analyst. My whole universe revolves around me typing and clicking a silly mouse. Plus a million kids were coming over, and I still had to drive a car to pick up some last items, so I completely panicked.

I was nervous that the kids would not be able to cope with me gone, and while I was in the waiting room, I was answering text questions on how to work the new dvd...

The whole time I was at the doctor (30 minutes), they could not start the movie. The doc saw me, and when I went to raise my right arm, you could see a lump as hard as a rock on the top part of my arm.

He gave me muscle relaxers to take after I got home. So I popped the movie in for them, showed them how to work a remote, and took a pill.

I was OUT, for like 4 hours! Here I was, worried to death they needed me, and they did not even realize I fell asleep at all, lol. It just goes to show, all these things you feel you HAVE to do, and only you can do them is a lie.

The pills worked amazing and today I only feel a small twinge. I can still feel bit of a knot in my arm, but hopefully it works its way out soon.

Sunday I was still in pain, so I basically relaxed all day. Besides my s's basketball games on Saturday and Sunday I barely left the house during the day at all. I slept a lot on Sunday too, because I took another pill.

Sunday was my S's 12th birthday and I got him video games so I didn't see him for hours.

At 9pm I complained to my mom that H never called to say Happy Birthday to S. But at 9:30pm H finally called.

My S won an award this morning for his NHD project. I invited H to see S get the award and unbelievably H said he would go. I asked H if we could sit together for the award, because I would be too embarrassed if we sat at different sides of the room.

H: I dont have a problem with you at all. I am just doing what you asked and staying away.

Me: I appreciate that. Thanks!

So I picked him up this morning and we both went to see my S get his award. We had to squeeze in together because the seats were tight. SO I kept accidentally brushing him, lol.

We had pleasant conversations while waiting, then I drove him home. I will go back to my no contact and try to ignore him. Besides I have too much to do to worry about a man who wants nothing to do with me.