Don't know what to do anymore...

[Painter]

This is a difficult evening. H has gone to bed, he gets up very early for work. I spent the time before he went to bed in my bedroom with a headache. He acts like he's been wronged.

He was defending staying in touch with her, since the A is over, they should be allowed to be friends! After all, I'm friendly with one of my exes! (I talk to him on the phone once a year.)

H does this when he is confronted with his inappropriate behavior - compares it to something that a 6 year old would understand is very different.

I'm not angry anymore, so the energy that carried me forward is gone. Right now it feels almost unreal, like a bad dream. My stomach hurts and I want to cry, but I can't. I want to go in and wake H and shake him and yell at him how he can do this.

I have two days ahead of me with nothing on the calendar, I work from home and have to keep myself going. It's going to be hard.